Undo Me

Search me, God, and know my heart; test me and know my anxious thoughts. See if there is any offensive way in me, and lead me in the way everlasting. Psalm 139:23-24 (NIV)

One of my favorite songs of all time is Undo Me by Jennifer Knapp. It's one of those songs that I need to turn up loud and breathe into my soul. It connects me to God like not many songs do. It's so authentically about someone who is screwed up and is coming before her savior.

Time to get down on my knees and pray, "Lord, undo me!"

How often do I think that I've drifted too far away from God? That He doesn't want to talk to me anymore. I stayed away from Christianity for so long because I thought I had messed up beyond salvation. The message in the church is mostly, "DON'T" - not "Well, you did, now here's what you can do."

Wanting, Needing, Guilty and Greedy Unrighteous Unholy Undo Me

My heavenly Father already knows these things about me. When I finally get honest with myself is when I find Him sobbing with me, but holding me tight; Perspiration cascading off of Him for all the distance that He has covered running after me.

Three nails and a cross to prove I owe my life eternally to You

Jesus is the simple message. He died because He loves you. That's it. There is no condition to that.

The filth of my sin was covering me when he picked me up, drew his holy fingers across my lips, and kissed me. The stench of my unholiness was all around us when He gently said, "I love you." He bathed me in His word, and placed His Spirit inside my body so that we would be entwined forever in the most intimate relationship ever.

I'm clean now - no sin clings to me. Because I don't sin anymore? Hardly! Because my sin is paid for by the precious blood of Christ. I live in debt to my savior, a humble place to be.

The question is, do we really want to be undone?

Another Lifetime

Just two days ago, I was checking my e-mail like always, when I saw that someone had posted a comment to this blog. I clicked on the link and it popped right up. I had completely forgotten that it existed! As I read through all the posts, I actually ministered to myself. What passion I had back then!

What an amazing God thing to bring me back here. The last time I posted to this blog was two lifetimes ago. Namely, Selah's and Miles' lifetimes ago. I've lost so much of myself in becoming a mother. I feel like the rebirth of this blog is the Lord whispering, "Don't forget who you are".

My kids are 3.5 and 16mos so I'm not ready to jump all the way back into my writing life, but I would like to commit to posting once a week. I'm not sure how my new posts will compare to the firecracker that posted years ago, but I'll give what I've got.

Thank you, Sharing Shadymont for posting your comment! God has used you to breathe life back into me.